| freibier1 | Pain and Sorrow I keep asking myself why I’m here Because its myself I mostly fear To end it all is what I want to do I have no reasen If I only knew I don’t see death as pain and sorrow Its an escape from today and tomorrow Its selfish I know but what can I say I don’t want to live another day I feel tired no strength to breath Take me now I want to leave My eyes are heavy and my body is weak Eternal rest Is what I seek I feel the light the room goes round Everything is silent except a buzzing sound My eyes wont open they are closed up tight I’m sure I’ll sleep though the night No more feelings my body wont move Nothing left for me to prove I head my chance I let it pass me by Took the easy way out and choosed to die Sorry mum sorry dead I think its better when I’m dead |
| freibier1 | Enternal Feelings My body thrashed upon my bed, Thought's of her inside my head. "Only a dream, she'll never be here" I wanted to scream, I was driven by fear That after the years of longing and need, Off my willing body she would never feed I don’t mind If you don’t care about my dreaming I don’t bother if you don’t share my feeling Meaningless words to you I pray Not eaven my heart can make you stay Do you know the place somewhere between dream and reality This delicious feeling close before you fall asleep When you can already see your dream, But you know that you are still awake That’s the same motion I have when I look into your face I'll be damned if you managed to give me the only thing I didn't already have. A conscience |
| freibier1 | An illusion Darling come take a moon bath with me I want to sink with you in my pale memory In the big black sky the strars glow Every time when I am here it is so Through the leaveless trees the moonlight shine Nothing in the world has ever been so fine Cause all my pain flew away since this day When you said yes you want me to stay Cant explain how it feels, look above listen the wind Everything keeps your eyes skinned See the stars glow, don’t try to hard, take it slow Only savour just like a whine from bordeaux I thought love was just a mirage of the mind, it's an illusion, nothing real and impossible to find. But in that night I as you lie here beneath me I begin to see that love is real, and exists in me |
| freibier1 | Alles begann am Ende Ich habe dich verschenkt, doch hast ständig mir gehört. Ich frage war es dir egal oder hat es dich gestört? Ich spürte du mußtest nächtelang zart und leise weinen, deine Tränen flossen Hand in Hand mit den meinen! Wir haben uns're Herzen vor lange Zeit getauscht, und danach ohne Worte auf den Puls gelauscht! Wir stehen Hand in Hand aber doch 1000 Meilen getrennt, niemals alleine, auch wenn uns keiner kennt! Jeder für sich ist Hölle, zusammen haben wir auch keine Chance, jedoch gemeinsam, gebürt uns ein Monument aus Bronz'! Ich bin ich, du bist du, deshalb sind wir wir, ich belächle dich gerade, du bist jedoch nicht hier! Ich höre deine Antwort auf Fragen die mich quälen, ich habe sie dir nie gestellt, sind das verwandte Seelen? Ich höre Satans lachen und alle Götter schreien, sie fragen wie kann man Liebe so unmenschlich entweihen |
| freibier1 | Retav Du lässt keine Fragen zu Gibst trotzdem Antworten Zeigst offen keine Gefühle Trotzdem sind sie in dir Kannst nicht richtig Lob und Anerkennung verteilen Bringst Deine Liebe materiell zum Ausdruck Manchmal hass ich Dich dafür Obwohl ich dich liebe Ich brauche deine Zuneigung Deine Wärme Deine Nähe Gib sie mir – Zeig sie mir Lass mich nicht allein Ich will hier raus Raus aus diesem Teufelskreis Was du mir nicht gabst Versuchte ich mir zu holen Mal im Guten - mal im Bösen Verlor dadurch den Bezug zum Leben Lernte nie mit meinen Gefühlen umzugehen Und wurde zu etwas Was ich nie werden wollte Ich hasste mich dafür obwohl ich mich auch liebte Ich brauchte meine Zuneigung Meine Wärme meine Nähe Nahm sie mir – holte sie mir Lasst mich allein Ich will her bleiben Lasst mich in Ruh Raus aus meinem Teufelskreis Nun bin ich allein Hab meine Liebe verspielt Und seh alles ein geb aber trotzdem nicht auf Kämpfe für das Was ich fühle und das nicht nur im Traum Lebe all meine Sorgen Drücke in Gefühlen mich richtig aus Versuche zu dem zu werden Was wirklich ich bin Jetzt verlier ich den Hass Und verstehe die Liebe Suche nun nach Zuneigung Wärme und Nähe Komm zu mir – Zeig Dich mir Lass mich nicht für immer allein Ich bin heraus Raus aus diesem Teufelskreis |
| freibier1 | I am living in the darkness hunting for your blood my medievel madness turns your life into mud your cruel demtation is my eternal sensation and so you´ll become my newest creation i must do what i must cant fight against my lust you are scared and full of fear knowing now that the end is near Still you are my pupet and i´m your player but than again im your frightend slayer now you hate me for that what i do but tomorrow night the same things you´ll do too Ashes to ashes and mud to mud now you live in the darkness hunting for anybodies blood |
| freibier1 | Feel – felt - fallen I feel the fallen angel in me The sad tortured one you can't see I cry as the fallen angel inside I look into your eyes and feel denied I have my wings bent and broken There are certain words that need to be spoken I live as a fallen angel my tears seen by few I feel so lost and scared I don't know what to do Can you mend my broken wings Can you hear how my heart screams The fallen angel in my thoughts I feel I have been abandoned and forgot Why do angels lose their wings Why can no one hear their screams This fallen angel carries so much pain Yet my soul is calmed my mother's rain Why must my soul bear all this hurt Not just mine but others as well Why am I damned to my own hell I see your pain I know it all to well This fallen angel wishes to die Especially since he can never ever fly This fallen angel that you can't even see This fallen angel is me |
| freibier1 | Vom Schüler zum Lehrer retour zu einem Lernenden, zum Gelehrten zum Weisen-Schüler, zum Erleuchteten bis hin zum erhabenen Buddah der Selbsterkenntnis hadernd am Abgrund stehend und voll liebevoller Angst die Absurdität des Lebens endlich erkannt zu haben, stürtzte er in den Abgrund lemminghafter Gedankengäge um sich am Ende wieder selbst zum Totempfahl alles Bösen und jeglicher Ungerechtigkeit zu manifestieren. Man bindet sich ja vieles auf, manches hinterlässt Kerben die in ihrer Zahl so mannigfalltig sind, dass sie nicht weiter auffallen sondern nur ein einzigartiges Muster bilden, doch diejenigen Dienge welche uns wirklich treffen können sind maximal vier bis fünf Gesichter, die sich von selbst langsam in diesen Totempfahl schnitzen, den wir Persönlichkeit nennen! CARPE NOCTEM |
| freibier1 | Dear Friend Near the door he paused to stand as he took his ring off his hand all who were watching did not speak as a silent tear ran down his cheek and through his mind the memories ran of the moments they walked and ran in the sand, he wanted one more time to hold his hand but now his eyes were so terribly cold for he would never again have him to hold they watched in silence as he bent near and whispered the words "I LOVE YOU" in his ear he touched his face and started to cry as he put on his ring and wanted to die and just then the wind began to blow as they lowered his casket into the snow this is what happens to a man alive when friends let friends...drink and drive |
| freibier1 | Passions Dark passions, which I dread, Filling pictures in my head Full of blood and dreary nights, Only highten my bitter plight. Blood is what I long for Sending shivers through my core, Just it's sweet smell tortures me, Though the sight is the key. Please take this life away, This dark passion, if you may, This death, which I can't obscure, This sickness, which has no cure. If only one believed, If only he had perceived, The troubles of the empire, And passions of a vampire. |
| freibier1 | Carousel Walz (for deamons) A midnight dance calls from the dark, and you turn around, turn around, to find... A demon swaying to the song, and you turn around, turn around, to find... His ghostly fingers round your waist, as he twirls you in peculiar ways. Your head is swimming with the tune, as you turn around, lost within, the sound. A shadow lying far below, and you turn around, turn around, to find... A lock of hair you, recognize, and you turn around, turn around, to find... Your image fading in the breeze, as the demons gather round the feast. You scream into the atmosphere, as you turn around, lost within, the sound. On painted ponies in the night, you turn around, turn around, to find... An apparition, softly cries and you turn around, turn around, to find... Her blazing eyes begin to melt, as they drip into her hands of guilt. She reaches for your shrieking throat, as you turn around, lost within, the sound. A sky of dancing demons twirl, and you turn around, turn around, to find... You’re waltzing right along with them, and you turn around, turn around, to find... His ghostly fingers round your waist, as he twirls you in peculiar ways. Your head is swimming with the tune, as you twirl around, lost within, the sound. |
| freibier1 | It was me I am what I am I am who Ive become There were many But now in the only one The only one who The only one to Walk through the gates of hell And still Im alive to tell The blind leading the blind Thats how it went I saw the dark bars of these gates Sharp and jagged and bent They opened So on into the darkness I went Step a pawn step Thought after thought Seeming it seemed In my own mind I was caught I walked through the blood Still warm from the vanes it ran And drenched I was red I walked through hells flames Burnt and scared Yet not yet dead I walked all the way To the end of hells road Where only empty skulls lay I walked over the carcasses Left there to decay I found the evil kings throne Except for my shadow I was alone So a seat I did take Take I did to take a break Then a mirror did I see A mirror face down On the chairs arm beside me And a curious creature I may be I just sat there and wondered Where the devil the devil may be And why free to roam his realm He let me be A quick look in the mirror I took I took that look to see And see I did what blood and flame Had done to me Seeing this puzzled me For the devil I searched to see Was the devil That was me |
| freibier1 | Hier 2 definitionen zum surealen Thema Liebe: Liebe ist eine Krankheit, die ich nur meinem schlimmsten Feinde wünsche! ;-) Liebe ist ein Tumor wenn er gutmütig ist kann man ihn entfernen wenn er es nicht is wird man daran zu Grunde gehen! ~~>Carpe Noctem<~~ |
| freibier1 | GOODBYE You go through life not knowing a damn thing. You want people to cry for you when your sorrows you sing. But I wouldn't cry and you didn't know what to do. I had my own problems... i couldn't feel sorry for you. So you act out in rediculous ways. Hoping to get pity from whomever stays. Well won't be one of those people, i can't be. There is one person I have to think of, and that is me. So I am walking away forever this time. And I am taking back everything that is mine. My love, my trust, and everything you've thrown away. My "hindsight" is gone, i got rid of it today. You will be in my memories, but I won't let that show. Remember, you were the one who told me to "just let it go". |
| freibier1 | HERE I AM AGAIN When the darkness slowly crawls into the end of the day and shaddows linger arround to stay There I am again Here i am again free When the steaples are left to decay anyhow stops to pray Then the shaddows take control To the red moon the wolves hauwl There i am again Here i am again free And so i draw the line nomore prechewd fellings Only everything now is mine So i opend my eyes for new flirt Stopped to bear all my hurt There i am again Here i am again free I didn`t find a new love Neither i searched But what i found Was ME And there i am again Here i am again free <---Carpe Noctem--> |
| freibier1 | Wien bei Nebel Demütig zitternd Unnötig wartend Hoffnungsloses Erwachen Sohn Tumultreiches Leben Des Fleisches schämend Des Herzens verleugnend Vater Hoch gepriesen in der Ferne Weit entfernt in der Nähe Mitbewohner ohne Miete Sohn Traurige Sehnsucht Des Wartens lästig Selbstmitleidig hadernd Mutter Geliebt immer Stolz manchmal Gezeigt nie Familie |
| freibier1 | Und im Meer der Beziehungen sind wir Nichtschwimmer; wir ertrinken aneinandergeklammert... wen nwir losslassen würden, könnten wir auftrieb erlangen. Die frage zwängt sich auf was mehr ausdruck hat! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Morbider Geisteszustand eines Flaschenschiffes - Von aussen betrachted in einer ertaunlich detailierten wunderbaren Welt, von innen eingekerkert und allein. |
